Perchance to Dream
- mclaspires
- Apr 20
- 2 min read
I wish this depression would lift
I sift through thoughts that drift
Trying to believe that breath is a gift
Gripping the sheets
This dark and silent realm
Incubating self hatred
I just want to melt into dreams
But eyes wide
High tide
In my mind I slide
While noisy inner monologue creeps
These thoughts are not me
I am not deep
I am shallow burnt out and tired
And I want sleep
Perchance to dream
What dreams come
The rub
Run
Here comes the sun
Daily rebuild and come undone
My mask fits snug
I hate my tongue
The sound of my words
Dripping the same shitty syllables
How many ways to paint
I'm miserable
Across the negative space of my brain
I keep rereading the same page
Ruminate
Room so gloomy
Tomb with heart still booming
Read Rumi
Make room to create
Walk the Tao
I am down
To wander
What would Buddha do
Present moment
Back to my rising chest
Release the need to ponder
Not much chance
Completely cut loose from purpose
The smell of teen spirit
Heaven scent
Follow and reach Nirvana
Roadhouse blues
Riding shotgun
Packing
Stuff my baggage in the trunk
Don’t you know there ain’t no devil
That’s just god when he's drunk
Adrenaline linger
Penny for thought
Copper clings touching taste bud
Don’t know where this fear came from
Are you really still awake bud
No blossom has begun
I miss my peers
Taken from earths face so fucking young
Fast living slowly dying
Generation drowning
Beautiful bodies on park benches lifeless
Limbs dangling off vomit stained couches
Loss of life
Snuffed out light
Hollow nights and squatters rights
Madness climbs the rising tides
Still riding through the bowels
Best minds destroyed
Hearing the howl
Like prey exposed
a predator’s naked lunch
Bones crunch
Feeling the fang that burrows
Pinch the flesh
Under bloodshot skies
Where crimson spreads
Below the horizon of half-mast lids
My pupils set
Stoned immaculate
I wish to dissipate
Dissociate from this disease I taste
I isolate
I sow hate
It gets so late
Or is it early
Sleepless start to brand new day
Eat my own narratives
And regurgitate
I am not a poet
I am just lost
Hoping my words help me navigate
But my inkwell is tapped
I lack direction
I don’t have answers
Only more questions
Living breath to breath
In through mouth
Out my nose
Stop clinging
To what I think I know
Deep inhale
Hold
Let go
Pocket stone
Lost in thought
Between the ax
And chopping block
The water feels nice
Close my tired eyes
In contemplation of life
Splash of dream
Watercolor scream
Count to three and dive
Where sirens sing
Of worlds serene
Sleep
Perchance to dream
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